1 Paycheck Away

I am pleased to see that bloggers around the country are writing about poverty today; I look forward to reading their stories. I experienced poverty for a short period of time as a young man in Florida where I moved with my pregnant wife in the late 1950s, seeking our fortune. 

We did not make a fortune -- the one promised by my boss, who supervised me as I sold encyclopedias door-to-door. I started out like a flash, selling enough to pay for one month's rent for a small apartment next to bakery in Lakeland, Florida, and to stock the fridge and cabinets with groceries. However, a month later, after my sales ran dry, we thought we were going to starve to death. We were down to our last five dollars at the end of the adventure, the rent was due and we had two packages of mac and cheese in the cupboard. I remember buying a gallon of milk, knowing that my wife needed the calcium, and I lay awake that night, praying for a sale the next day. The sale did not come. We decided to sell our car, a 1952 Plymouth, to get enough money to eat, pay for a week's overdue rent and purchase train tickets back to Indiana where we had family.

The morning I was going to buy enough gasoline to get the car to a car lot to sell it, I stepped out onto the porch at sunrise and wept over feeling so helpless. I smelled bread baking at the bakery and took a few steps in that direction, peaking through the open back door and plotting to steal a loaf of bread to feed our growling stomachs. In the end I decided against it, not so much because of my morals but more because I thought if I got caught it would only complicate our situation. I will never forget that moment because I had justified the theft in my mind. I have thought about that often since, understanding on some level why poor people sometimes steal or con people. I vowed to get back on my feet and to never again allow myself or my family to get one paycheck away from hunger and poverty.

As it turned out, I had sold the car for way less than its value. I then gladly walked the three miles back to our flat, took my wife out for a lunch of spaghetti, garlic bread and milk at a nearby diner, and offered our landlady the overdue rent. She refused and gave us homemade chocolate chip cookies instead. We bought one-way train tickets back to Indiana and arrived there with three dollars between us. Thanks to relatives and friends, we made our way back to a job and a normal life.

Today, when I hear some politicians talk about welfare mothers and poor people as if they are a cancer on society, I want to shout at them that they don't know what they're talking about. Poverty is not just a physical state, it is a demoralizing, psychological weight that can crush the spirit out of the most resilient person. World peace might be the most honored wish for humanity. But let's start by ending poverty. The two issues are inseparably shackled together like prisoners in a gulag.

The Bradley Effect

An electoral phenomenon that allegedly occurred 26 years ago in Caliornia is suddenly being held up as a reason to be skeptical about Sen. Barack Obama's widening advantage in opinion polls.
Many political pundits are saying the so-called "Bradley Effect" will ambush the first
African-American candidate for President from a major political party. For those who haven't heard about it, the Bradley Effect was blamed for Democrat Tom Bradley's
stunning loss to Republican Attorney General George Deukmejian in the 1982 gubernatorial election.
Every poll showed Bradley, the former Los Angeles mayor, well ahead of Deukmejian. In exit polls conducted throughout that election day, the majority of voters were saying they voted for Bradley. When Bradley didn't win, pollsters deduced that many white voters who had voted for Deukmejian lied about their vote because they did not want to admit that they had voted against a black man.
I was editor of the Press-Tribune, the daily newspaper in Roseville, CA in 1982 and I followed that election closely. I know why the exit polls showed Bradley winning the election. Fact is, more people voted for him than for Deukmejian that day. Simply put, Deukmejian came in second in votes cast at the polls. But Deukmejian's campaign had conducted a well-organized campaign to encourage people to vote absentee after studying past elections which showed that a large majority of absentee ballots were cast by Republicans. When the absentee ballots were counted late that night, Deukmejian had won by about 93,000 votes out of 7.6 million total votes cast.
There may have been white voters who lied to pollsters about how they voted. But the so-called Bradley Effect has been grossly over-stated. Pollsters don't like to be wrong. In rushing the blame "dishonest" voters as a way to explain the surprising outcome, they overlooked the absentee ballot strategy. Perhaps I am naive, but I do not believe the Bradley Effect is going to defeat Senator Obama. To insist that a "white lie" will decide this Presidential election outcome is, in my opinion, a careless position at best and a cynical one at worse.

Heartbeat Away

The nomination of Sarah Palin as the Republican Vice Presidential candidate is a sobering and serious event considering the history of that office over the past 60 years. During that time three Vice Presidents have become President without being elected to that office.

Harry S. Truman was thrust into the Presidency upon the death of Franklin Delano Roosevelt; Lyndon Baines Johnson became President when John F. Kennedy was assassinated; and Gerald Ford ascended to the office when Richard M. Nixon, facing impeachment, resigned.

The fact that the Vice President is but a heartbeat away from the Presidency was also underscored with the assassination attempts on Presidents Ford and Ronald Reagan. Had they not survived, Vice Presidents Nelson Rockefeller and George H.W Bush would have become Presidents.

Two other VPs actually stood in temporarily when Section 4 of the 25th Amendment -- replacement of the President under health circumstances -- was applied. Nixon was the stand-in President during three illnesses of President Dwight D. Eisenhower and the first Bush stepped in during Reagan's colonoscopy.

So, while Palin's qualifications as a person able to field dress a moose and cheer on her hockey playing children while still governing the country's least populous state are interesting, do they prepare her to step into perhaps the most powerful office on the planet on a moment's notice? How one answers that question becomes academic if 57 days from now U.S. voters elect the McCain-Palin ticket. But think for just a moment about the comparison of Palin with HST, LBJ and Ford in the context of preparation for the Presidency. 

That's what I'm talking about.

The 2nd Republican Party

I have faithfully watched every national political convention -- Democratic and Republican -- since 1960. Most of the time I have voted for the Democratic candidate but watched the GOP convention as well, trying to keep an open mind. And, I must say, I have never watched a convention of the in-party in which that party's convention speakers ignored the sitting President and the accomplishments of that administration until this week's gathering in St. Paul, Minn.

Wednesday night's speeches were typical. Rudy Guiliani, the keynote speaker, spoke about the legacy of the Reagan presidency but said not one word about the George W. Bush legacy. Vice Presidential nominee Sarah Palin followed with a fiery, sniping speech and never mentioned Bush or any of his administration's accomplishments in the past eight years (although she did say John McCain supported the Iraq War Surge, thus supporting the President).

It is as if McCain and Palin have started a third party, a sort of Second Republican Party. They have promised to include alternative energy initiatives as part of their platform, something the Bush administration has resisted. They have promised to cut taxes and reduce government spending, conveniently ignoring the fact that the Bush administration, which inherited the largest federal budget surplus in history, in eight years built up the largest federal deficit in history.

It's as though McCain-Palin Maverick Party is going to turn things around, doing all the things that the Bush Republican Party failed to do in eight years.

 In a country where nearly 40% of the citizens say they are having a hard time affording food, we have the party in power offering to us a national ticket that promises to restore the economy and steer us back to prosperous times. Some of the news media pundits covering the convention said this McCain-Palin "reform-maverick" strategy might work. If it does, it will be a miracle. But, hey, I thought it was impossible for George W. Bush to get elected in the first place. 

Show, Not Tell

I took a writing course recently and for a moment thought I could write. It's been a dream that has hung around on a shelf in my mind all the while I have been careering, putting food on the table, surviving. I have written much and on occasion have gotten a good sentence on paper. I dream of writing the Great American Novel, all the while convinced I have only enough talent to write the Great American Paragraph. Then I read Don DeLillo and am at first intimidated then inspired. DeLillo's Cosmopolis is what prompted this blog. 

In the writing course -- the best I ever took, from a teacher named Sands Hall -- we learned, really learned, how to crack that Show Not Tell code. DeLillo knows how to show, as in this Manhattan street scene, described by the book's protagonist, billionaire Eric Packer: "He saw a woman seated on the sidewalk begging, a baby in her arms. She spoke a language he didn't recognize. He knew some languages but not this one. She seemed rooted to that plot of concrete. Maybe her baby had been born there, under the No Parking sign. FedEx trucks and UPS. Black men wore signboards and spoke in African murmurs. Cash for gold and diamonds. Rings, coins, pearls, wholesale jewelry. This was souk, the shtetl. Here were the hagglers and talebearers, the scrapmongers, the dealers in stray talk. The street was an offense to the truth of the future. But he responded to it. He felt it enter every receptor and vault electrically to his brain."

I am surprised to find that the reviews of Cosmopolis are mixed. John Updike wasn't so impressed and wrote that when one writes a book where almost anything can happen, the trouble is that nothing happens. Perhaps. I'm no Updike. But in showing me what he thought of United States culture in this new millennium, DeLillo told me that he thinks  we have arrived where Marx predicted we would when he wrote his alienation theory. Marx believed that Capitalism would cause such a divide between the haves and the have-nots that people would become alienated from one another and from the cold reality of consumerism. 

Have we arrived at the doorstep of Alienation? I'm not sure. There certainly are signs -- the obscene wealth of the few and the abject poverty of the many. Crime is so serious in some cities that it chases fearful citizens out to live in the hinterlands. And greed trumps crime on the scale of cultural cancers. Can anarchy be far behind?

Read Cosmopolis and see if any of it sounds familiar. It seems that we are at a place where we need a spiritual awakening, a renewal of values and ideals that once offered promise and hope. How do we accomplish that? I guess we start by doing it individually -- being kind to ourselves, being kind to that person closest to us. By showing, not telling.

On The Train

When I was four years old I took a train ride from Camden, New Jersey, to Ft. Wayne, Indiana, that was perhaps the most important journey of my life.

My father had snatched me from my mother after their divorce and decided to change our name so she couldn't find me. He also decided, after he was drafted into the US Army Air Corps in 1941, to give me temporarily to my Indiana uncle and aunt, who had also changed their name from Bonanno to Bowman as part of the plot to keep my mother from tracking me down.

I remember the train ride vividly, particularly one episode that today, 67 years later, is as clear in my mind's eye as the computer screen in front of me as I write this. The 700-mile trip on the Pennsy Railroad train was an over-nighter. Within the first hour I was transfixed as I looked out the window at the dogwood lined Appalachian Mountains. My dad caught me looking and told me that in a few minutes we would be going around a hairpin curve. I asked what that was. He explained that I would be able to see the train's engine as it looped around, going in the opposite direction of our car. I remember thinking that was impossible. But moments later I saw the engine and several cars of our train across a deep chasm, heading toward the next curve. I was enthralled and pretty sure in that moment I would one day be a railroad engineer.

Years later, when I related the story to my dad, he replied that he had not been on that train ride with me. He had asked a friendly stranger to "look after" me. Over the years I had turned that stranger into my dad, perhaps not believing that any father in his right mind would put a little boy on a train by himself for a 700-mile trip to be handed off to relatives he had never seen. I wonder what ever happened to the stranger and I am grateful for his kindness. I cannot imagine that scene repeating itself in today's culture.

Gorgeous George

One of the startling truths my dad shared with me as a 12-year-old boy was that professional wrestling was fake. That revelation stung me about as deeply as it must a five-year-old who finds out there is no Santa Claus.

Wrestling was as popular those days as baseball or football in Ft. Wayne, Indiana, where I grew up. Since I had been let in on the secret I saw it as purely entertainment. Still, many of my buddies and a lot of adults remained unwavering believers. They swore wrestling was for real and they'd point to the blood pouring from a competitor's head after being struck with a ring stool or catching a sharp elbow too sharply in the mouth as indisputable evidence of its authenticity. So, when Gorgeous George came to town in the early '50s, zealous fans -- wild-eyed, umbrella-toting women and crazed, fist-waving men -- paid good money ($5 ringside) to scream expletives at the blonde, flowing haired man in the ermine-collared robe and diamond earrings. 

I was reminded of Gorgeous George this week in Bob Dylan's autobiographical book, Chronicles Volume I. Dylan, then a young star, encountered the wrestler-showman at the Minneapolis National Guard Armory. Dylan, who was on stage when George made a grand entrance, was thrilled when George recognized him and paused to nod and wink at him in an encouraging way.

I, too, was awed by the man as I watched him on the small black and white TV set in our living room. There were many heroes and anti-heros in pro wrestling in those days, guys with names like Goliath, The Strangler, The Twister and The Bone Crusher. But none put on a better show than Gorgeous George. Actually, he was a mediocre, 5-foot-9, 200-pound, little known athlete before he decided to remake himself into a flamboyant, effeminate, irritating villain. His entrances changed the wrestling world and his antics were credited with a sudden boom in the sales of TV sets. 

He was, I believe, the first wrestler to come down the aisle with music blaring over the loud speakers. His theme song was the unlikely Pomp and Circumstance. He was accompanied by women tossing red roses, mammoth body guards, trainers, valets, managers and who knows what else. As he made his way to the ring (a journey that took 10 times longer than any other wrestler), he would respond to the mounting jeers and boos with his own taunting and threatening jesters that would cause the weakest in the crowd to cower and the bravest to yell even louder. 

As he slowly climbed into the ring, tossing his curls back away from his face, he would be handed a large and garish perfume atomizer that he would then ceremoniously spray in his corner and toward the crowd. As the boos rose to thunder he would walk across the ring and spray his opponent. By now the crowd was more like a mob than an audience but George seemed undaunted as he walked about the ring waving and blowing kisses.

I don't know his actual win-loss statistics but I know Gorgeous, whose real name was George Wagner, won more bouts than he lost. He even won a couple of championships, much to the chagrin of most fans, who continued to pay hard earned cash in hopes of seeing his face ground into the mat by a "real man."

I imagine that any number of athletes (Mohammed Ali? Dennis Rodman?) and entertainers (Liberace? Little Richard?) learned a thing or two by watching old Gorgeous George footage. I'm surprised his story has not been made into a movie. If that happens, I can't wait to see who plays the lead role.